As i grow older ; i become wiser. wiser in thoughts,charity, gratitude , emotions , ignorance and love. my thoughts straight up and align horizontally with no curves. from the last 5 years i was searching this : the wiser me ! and from the last 5 weeks i discovered that. i used to search love and happiness in others and materialistic things. i would like to share a story , i was 6 years old and my uncle gifted me a watch (In suhas language : the one from 3 idiots – A titan watch worth 3 thousand in the year 2000) And i loved that. unfortunately after 4 years it went missing. and i cried like a crybaby as hell. the main motto was to dictate how materialistic i was ?! to very ups and downs i found that being wiser and not materialistic makes me more happy. and my happiness is very important. i often share my views with my sister, i utter my entire nuisance thoughts and end the conversation with a simple statement – ‘no body loves me’ she is tired of explaining me everyone does.. its not like that. but the stubborn me wins the conversation everytime. my endless thoughts were on peak and my sister found a new way which helped me in being more wiser. she said ” okay. if nobody loves you, its completely okay. if nobody showers the love you want its okay. you are itself much more capable of loving yourself that you don’t need anybody for that love. you are itself so strong to have stuffs by your own that you don’t need anybody for that. you are itself very much in your own world that you don’t need anybody for saying my entire world is you”. she added we agree that you are a crybaby and a pampered brat and what you want is true zone of happiness with bunch of beautiful people giving and sharing love and love but don’t forget you don’t need to search them you already have some people who will be by your side no matter what and pamper you not because you like it but because they love you and with that you have your own love ; which is rare haa” ?! and these words made me realise how beautiful life is! may be i am not where i wanted to be but definitely i am happy than i was used to be ! happy in my own space.
people find me a little arrogant, rude and obviously bipolar because this is i am ! when i joined my college i was that human i wished for ; sweet, helpful, poised, calm, listener, appologetic. but i found peace in what i am . i am completely opposite of the one i mentioned above. i am neither sweet nor poised. i am not at all helpful. calm is not even in my dictionary. and i accepted myself the way i am. i distanced myself from the people who are not good for me , may be they are good for others or themselves but definitely not for me.
i choose to be wiser for myself by myself.
p.s – to all those who find its hard to love them and nobody understands their feeling and all stuff ; you are itself capable of loving your self and choosing yourself. although a strong headed person need someone but wait: timing matters.
One fine morning you woke up and realize 2018 is just 6 months away!! You skip your mind. You push your energy for the future zone. You console your soul about the upbringing future stuffs and give a power-puff slogan “GetSetGo”. Unfortunately , we miss our footsteps which are itself there in present . The one which are there with us today. Life has become like a music app. You download the app. Choose your favourite category. Set the volume. Add queue. Play. Repeat. Stop. Why to complicate this beautiful journey with so-called app. You can download it (choose your path) , You can select category (choose your field) , But don’t favouritise, Don’t add songs to queue (don’t add things for future) You never know what next song can bring.
Stay in present. Enjoy every beat. Let music be your best bud ; on simple terms – LET LIFE BE YOUR BEST BUD 🙂 – ANUSHREE KALLA
Hey you !
It was a tough mid rough year for you. Though you wanted to start it much way before ; your own thoughts were ceasing you from doing so. In your own head –
You were fealing lost disastrously
You were falling sick poorly
You were failing hard miserably
However- ” The lost are never truly lost or atleast rarely”
The one who used to cry over unbaked macronies. The one who used to throw mom’s cutlery. The one who used to bash at anyone because of frustration. The one who used to search happiness in others… is now a complete human bluntly.
You ; Your own human diary. You ; your own strength. You ; Your own power. You ; your own Me ! You beautiful head can lit you up. You pure soul can hit you up. The one who cares for every relation. The one who shares every suggestion. The one who is not hard to love. The one who stays. This you is extremely strong. This you is extremely generous. May not be topper but a learner who never gave up.
Kudos the new soul who search and find happiness in herself/ himself.
“I AM A CONFLICTED CONTRADICTION”
YES.. THE ABOVE WRITTEN WORDS ARE COPIED STILL RELATABLE.
MY FATHER ALWAYS FORCES ME TO CHANGE AND AS A REBELLIOUS CHILD I DISAGREE AND CONFLICT BACK WITH A CONTRADICTION ‘I CAN IMPROVE .. I CANNOT CHANGE’. BUT SEEING SCENARIOS OF EVERYDAY CHORES .. MY FATHER PROVES ME WRONG AGAIN.
“CHANGE IS NECESSARY”
“CHANGE IS THE LAW OF UNIVERSE”
YES.. IT IS NECESSARY!!
NECESSARY TO LIVE. NECESSARY TO LAUGH. NECESSARY TO LOVE. NECESSARY TO SURVIVE.
BRAIN : WHY TO CHANGE ? FOCUS ON IMPROVEMENT. IMPROVEMENT TOWARDS WORK. IMPROVEMENT TOWARDS CRAFT. IMPROVEMENT TOWARDS FOCUS. IMPROVEMENT TOWARDS CONFIDENCE. IMPROVEMENT TOWARDS LIFE.
HEART: COMPLETELY CHANGE FOR YOUR OWN GOOD. JUST FOR YOUR OWN SELF. CHANGE YOUR WORKING STYLE. CHANGE YOUR CRAFT PATTERN. CHANGE YOUR UNDERCONFIDENT BEHAVIOUR. CHANGE YOUR WRONG FOCUS. CHANGE YOUR LIFESTYLE FOR YOUR GOOD LIFE. FOR YOUR SELF.
JANUARY 2017 MARKS NEW CHAPTER FOR MY UPCOMING FUTURE; IT CAN EITHER MAKE IT OR RUIN IT.
I AM NOT ALLOWED TO BE EMOTIONAL FOOL AT THIS TIME. IF CHANGE WAS NOT NECESSARY THEN DILWALE WOULD BE A 200 CRORE CLUB MEMBER. IF CHANGE WAS NOT NECESSARY THEN SRK-KAJOL WOULD HAVE RECREATED MAGIC AGAIN.
CHANGE IS REQUIRED…. AND THIS ARTICLE IS SAVIOUR IN DISGUISE. THE ONE WHO CAN’T SPEAK CAN WRITE.
TO ALL THE DISGUISED INTROVERTS WHO ARE DEALING WITH DIFFERENT SITUATIONS .. IT’S HIGH TIME TO CHANGE.
NOW OR NEVER
– INNER VOICE FOREVER 🙂
Do I still love him? I don’t know ? Is it love ? Is it affection ? Is it jealosy ? Is it “I am missing him ” concept ? Is it I am being attracted towards him all over again ? Is it I am forgetting about the one I used to love since 6.. ? Or was that love was also affection . Is it I am in Confusion zone ? Is it even possible? I am totally confused . Or may be I am overreacting ? Or may be I am wrong all over again. Is it ????? – Inner voice .❤
PARTICULARLY EVERYTHING IS WELL SETTLED. EVERYTHING IS BEAUTIFUL. ITS UPTO BEHOLDER THAT HOW HE/SHE PERCEIVE THE NOTIONS IN CONTEXT TO ANY SITUATIONS. EACH AND EVERYONE OUT THEIR LIVE THEIR OWN MAGICAL AND PEACEFUL DREAM. APT TOO ! AND PERSISTENCE OF THEIR IMAGINATION PERSONIFY THE ELEMENT. THE WORLD. THE AURA. THE ZONE. THE INNER SELF. THE REAL THEM. R.E.A.L MEANS R.E.A.L
NOBODY HERE CONFRONTS THEIR INNER SECRETS. WHY WOULD THEY DO SO? WELL, ANSWER IS AS COMPLICATED AS THE WHOLE NUMBER SYSTEM IN MATHEMATICS =D ITS GOOD TO HAVE A INNER DREAM. INNER FEEL. INNER FANTASY.
JUST FLOURISH IT AND EXPLORE THEM. AND FEEL HOW BEAUTIFUL THIS WORLD IS .
R.E.A.L F.A.N.T.A.S.Y = R.E.A.L Y.O.U
THANK YOU !
yes you confused soul. you are important than u think. you are creator. you are desire. don’t miss that dope and don’t blink. you might feel hopeless at times. you might re-thinks your deed. make your hair do ; have a coffee. A bollywood is all you need. You corrected your move and tried your game.Sometimes you fail and sometimes miserably fail. Though winning seems difficult but don’t forget ” Haar k jeetne vale ko baazigar kehte hai ” See in mirror and use your tool. You are enough. You are powerful.
Say Yes and recite that poetry again !!
Many of my articles are in combination with me and surroundings.. moreover less me and more surroundings.
In my deep thoughts I share my old experiences with me. It’s time to share this to Dear Voice:)
Yesterday I was at my best friend’s home. Over there I met my junior’s father who addressed me as MPS orienter (in reference to my old school) I felt so good at that moment. (WOW) Back to present day I am not the orienter of my college?! I am not the speaker?! I am not that star student?! Present social scene – a quote : We don’t lack strength; we lack will. And after 5 years I got my answer to my flaws : WILL. Yes exactly.. back to past scene I was having will. Will of being oriented. Will of being passionate. Will of consistency. Will of successfully succeeding without thinking of outcomes. I am same human as of then . Nothing has changed. From crying to be pessimistic. From anger issues to rudeness. What has changed is WILL. I found my answer. I found my deep answer. Tasks are tough from then . But still I gained my will. My father always say – ” keep your emotional strength aside ” Time to tie laces for this mark!
At this point I genuinely don’t care about people. I genuinely don’t care about being isolated. I genuinely don’t care about humiliations. And at last neither about success nor failures. I consider myself as tortoise. Slow very slow. And again as I am a quote lover I’ll add -“Speed doesn’t matter; forward is forward.”One of my friend even commented on this .. I was demotivated. And the reason was I was lacking will. Again repeatedly I was facing failures… was doing nothing and failing… even my college mates started asking me “Are you depressed ” My favourite line to add: quote- There is huge difference in being sad and depressed ! Everyone was like Raguvendra and Jehangir Khan in my life ( Dear zindagi : the one who give wounds and the other who heels it ) And at last I realise I am not Kaira ( the protagonist) neither Kaira nor any other heroine.. I Am Anushree Kalla. Simple. After then with all my will I created work scene again and now “work in progress ” !!
My thoughts are publicly dancing with WordPress . It was my will to stand for my own thoughts. And thank you dear voice for listening!!
#ToMe!! 🙂 If you can relate .. just relate don’t assume . Because we all are unique in our own ways and may be your voice wants to say something to you . Hear it. Feel it . Share it 🙂 And Say yes to your own self;)
M.I.D.N.I.G.H.T – Hopes alive !
Its the time when clock strikes 12:00 a.m. Everything is Quiet. Everything is Calm. Everything is dark. Still some enthusiasm lits the face.In the midst of darkness thoughts whispers , mind alters , heart utters , soul shines ; without screaming , without harming , without disturbing. It depicts #ShineInsideOut!
I found a quote written somewhere :
“the reason i like staying up late so much
because between hours of 1-5 am, the world
is quiet and no one expects anything from
me. i colud stare at my wall for 4 hours
and there would be no consequences. its
so silent and calm. I LOVE IT !”
Above written words are so alluring and undoubtedly captures my heart ; my soul.
an advertisement of Mr.Shahrukh Khan calls up :
“Jab saari duniya soti thi
Main Jaggta tha”
(when they fall asleep
I work on my weakness)
Clear Cut Demarkation : according to me- Night is the place ; yes a personified place where new ideas take birth. It clearly shows the color , the path , the road , the journey. Sometimes I find it difficult to stay awake late being an spectrophobic =D but when u have your second half with you (here its my sister) it reduces all your stress and fear.
Late night convos , when u become askhole, when there is no competition, when there is no worry of textpectation!Everything seems so B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L
Compiling everything : “Enjoy the darkness ; shine everytime