Knowingly , let’s become unknown :)

Hi all! Hope you are doing good. Today I am in my nostalgia feel. I will share one incidence with you all and hopefully that can make you understand this blog more.

I was in my eight standard and at that time there was some quiz contest in my school. My class teacher chose me and two more students from my class and she told to prepare for this  quiz , she added by saying that questions would be ask from your all subjects ; it was like one student from each standard, 6th , 7th and 8th. We all agreed. I went back home , I opened my science book and started reading Chapter one. I felt really bored in the first chapter itself so I said to myself, ‘ we will see what will happen tomorrow , already I know the basic part.’ And I enjoyed my evening in a belief that I know my basic concept. Next morning , quiz started. I was in team A with my other fellow mates. My teacher started asking questions to each team , it was one by one round, trust me we answered nothing. After that,  rapid fire part started , we answered 7 questions wrong from 10 questions being asked , in front of the entire school , our principal , all teachers , all students. And this quiz was repeated with the other two teams in the same manner and they answered the questions very well. Quiz ended and the scores were ; Team B was the winner with 45 points , Team C stood second with 25 points and our team , Team A was last with 5 points. Now come the twist , I know this , even today I can feel that , I was feeling nothing. I was not embarrassed that I stood last , I was not ashamed that my knowledge power was not up to the mark. I felt nothing. I smiled and clapped for the other two teams. I went back home , my mother asked me about my contest and I uttered I scored 5 points and I stood last with a laughing face. I still remember that. Next morning , I even forget about what happened yesterday and got busy with my other school stuffs.

This nostalgia gave my ink a moral. It clearly states that when we were unknown to the fact that what others will think about us or when we were unknown to the fact that only we knowingly bring crisis to us by saying that we lack , at that point , harsh to harsh problems felt nothing. When now we know that we have the power to think , we have the power to act , we have the power to judge ourselves , we call our problems when they even don’t want to come. So that now we know , let’s become unknown again.

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To all those who think they regret their past decisions!

Hi! So you think that you did something in your past and you regret that for your life. You think you did something so inappropriate that you just wish you could change it or reverse it. While reading this, those who have done it will have a mischievous regretful expression on their face. 

We all have gone through some serious ups and downs. If you can relate to the fact than you know that any Amber in her childhood days was bullied. She was bullied to such an extent that it underestimated her confidence, that it affected her studies. Such an early age. Alas!! Yes, she wants to change this. She wants to reverse it. But on a second note , if she would have changed it, how this incident would have been a turning point in her life.?!How she would have gain that courage at such an early age to cope up with all this. How she would have been so brave. 

If you can relate to the fact than you would know that any Binti in her teenage days was being harassed. An older man! Gross!! Perhaps it was not a rape, not a complete physical torture but mental issue played really well. Yes she wants to change it. If she would have changed it, how it would have transform a teenage kid into a responsible, open-minded teenager who have the guts to share this ill-treatment with her family.?!How it would have present such a strong girl.?!

If you can relate to the fact than you would have know that any Shraddha has undergone through skin issues , complexion issues that she felt that her face which is her sword is rusted. A girl – no beauty! Pathetic!! If she would have changed it than how she would have known the fact that , ‘Real beauty is the beauty of soul’. May be this idea does not work in real life but it still captures the heart, realisation process is delayed. 

If you can relate to the fact than you would know that any Rahul , Aastha , Sanjana or Chirag has undergone through betrayal, has faced double-standards, lost a need-in-deed friend, has been taken for granted, has been misconstrued , has been chosen as second priority, has failed in terms of friends, relationships and work. If they all would have change this than they would have never grow in their life. They would have never explore the meaning of true friendship. They would have never trust the idea that forcing things can destroy your relationship with others. They would have never trust themselves. 

May be , the regrets you feel today are your second chance in disguise. 

P.s ~ The above mentioned names are hypothetical. Don’t feel offended. They were used to explain the details of the topic.

What happens when you start loving yourself?!

When you start loving yourself , you attract your old life back !

When you wake up and think of your daily chores and leave for your work / office / college / school and that same way , that same lane , that same road waves you back which earlier used to taunts you.

When you reach your mark and you really want to start a fresh because you were stuck with your own rope before and then you try to proceed , that proceeding , that trying smiles at you which earlier used to laugh at you.

In that busy day , if a negative thought or anxiety or despair hits you , your mind pushes it away with optimism which earlier used to haunts you.

You feel insulted at times and because of lack of focus or determination you feel it is impossible , at that time your heart whispers ,’Give it a try , ONE MORE TIME’, which earlier used to give up and leave you in pieces.

When you love yourself , you love others too and at that time you realise the actual meaning of quality over quantity.

When you love yourself, you love yourself more, you love yourself more and more and faithfully you accept and attract your old life back 🙂

Accept it with a big smile :)

Hey !
Hopefully you are doing well!
You have been gone through a lot! And it is not easy to commit that you were broken and you were hopeless. You committed zillions of mistakes, moreover silly mistakes. You portrayed something you were not. You personified yourself as a character which is not you fully but partially. You stood as a tree while everyone else were stealing your fruits. You showed your inner self to the outer world who didn’t even deserve to know. You gave your right pieces to the wrong individuals. You told them how much they mean to you and they didn’t even reciprocate it back. You even became , not even second but third lead of your life movie. You misconstrued your professionalism. You were been taken for granted. You overshadowed your career. You served your heart as a delicious dish and people ate it.
BUT what’s done is done. You have to pay for what you have done. Your past will never leave you. But what you can do is accept it and remind your past about it’s future.
Correct your zillions of mistakes. People will doubt it but you don’t give up. They will say how you have outshine suddenly, you were nothing and at that time show them the mirror of your compunction and continue to correct it. Portray what you actually are. Suddenly it will shock people. But eventually this will be real you. A satisfactory you. Don’t compare your character with any other hypothetical stuff or human. Be you the way you are. Don’t carry any image. No matter what other say , you know your image , carry that. Still be a tree. Change the perception. Remove stealing by giving. Believe that they don’t steal, you give. You carry trucks of sweetness within you and you give your share to them. Still show your inner self because don’t be afraid. Think you are like mirror, who never ever hide it’s real self. Don’t be afraid to tell what you feel, no matter what will be the outcome. Don’t forget gratitude is bigger than regret. Don’t give your pieces. Don’t differentiate right or wrong individuals. Go with the flow. You don’t need to tell people you care about them. The one who are yours’ don’t need it and the one who are not will never understand it. Be the lead. Fuck modesty. So what if you were supporting cast before. Don’t forget King Shahrukh Khan was a second lead in his first movie. Give your professional life a priority. Though you don’t know , still try. Believe yourself. Take it step by step. Don’t let yourself been taken for granted. Shine for yourself. Never forget a person is known by his work. Work is workship kyunki ammijan kehti hai koi dhanda chota nahi hota aur dhande se bada koi dharm nahi hota ( no work is small and work is religion itself;))  If you have mistakenly chosen a field you are not comfortable with , accept it. May be your destiny wants it . Give it a try. Be a full time what you want to be and part time what your destiny has planned.Still serve your heart but don’t let people eat it despite show them and make them wonder why they don’t have your heart and a place to share. Be something for yourself and your loved ones .
Dear you , if you think you are everything ; trust me YOU ARE and if you think you are not ; you are nothing.
Carry your past with smile and correct it. Love and live your present. Future will outshine itself . 🙂
-Anushree Kalla

Part 3:
Constantly torn between go be a bad women and take it out what yours and don’t give the eye otherwise it will turn out blind. She was in a constant battle with the above mentioned sayings. Amber was unapologetically failing her professionalism and apologetically her personalism. She was confused which side to show and which not. She was confused to give her right pieces. One day , she decided to take care of herself and she distanced herself from the negativity.
From that day she was a new human trapped in the same old soul. Things were tougher but so was her attitude towards work. She was selflessly falling for her. She cared, she got hurt , she fall, she fail , she won.
This journey of self acceptance was her biggest victory !
Will you choose yourself or you will let the old flame burn you twice, flame of selfishness, competition, rivalry, betrayal?!

Part 2:
Amber was happy. She entered the gates with hopes. She inhaled power and strength to do what was meant to be done. Amber was alone but not lonely.
Her start up was good and she thought that she can persue this. Every day was a new challenge and when days passed she actually faced the reality, things hit tighter , they got rougher , tougher and it faded the glow she carried 3weeks back. Within three weeks 😑 It was impossible for her to know what actually happened.
Her family and two friends she had supported her in every way possible and guided her by saying : ‘don’t get manipulated by others, if someone do good to you than it’s fine and if not than also fine.’ They knew how she was , overly emotional and a sensitive 2year child packed in 20year old female body. Her sister warned her about the people hiding behind , everyone behind the masks, to which she added , ‘ they are not you , you are here to survive, don’t get trapped ‘
She heard everything and tried to grab whatever she could . Though because of her fragile heart she got trapped. A cold , hard hearted showing girl was an amiable to some human beings and she showed her real side to them. It was fun. They helped her professionally, she helped them too and with addition personally too! She was even called Jagat mata (Mom of Universe) by her fellow friends. Everything was okay still something was missing.
Her mind was their with her fellow mates , she even started to take care of them and moreover she added her interest to her work but her heart was lost.
भीड़ हिम्मत तो देती है , पर पहचान छीन लेती है ।
(Crowd may give you support but it snatches your identity)
And with that note , her identity was lost.
To witness more , wait for the next part

A breezy , sunny morning and it was her last paper , last 12th board paper , she was happy that she will be free from all the burdens , what else can give a teen more happiness that she will sleep all day-night , have snacks, will do fun in her own language sorted but eventually she was more sad that it will end, the school , the only love she has will be no more in contact. For her , it ended in a blink. An unhappy note was the beginning towards her new life.
Amber was an innocent human , soft spoken , above average in studies , chubby girl. Though she never thought about her physical appearance but she always wanted to excel in her academics. Soon after she passed her school , she dropped out for her further medical studies , she wanted to clear her medical entrance for that. She was a proud daughter to her family and she has not faced any failure in her life. But when she appeared for her first entrance test , she failed , she was shattered and moreover her family was shattered.
After that , things even got worse. She was facing many problems professionally and personally!!
But as said, Time heals everything!
She got her first victory by her father as he was the one who got her admission done in one of the dental college.
Beginning of new life , creation of giving new smiles and with that she lost hers !
And to witness more , wait for the next part !

Do I belong here ?

Do I belong here ?

Yes or No?

Is it a phase called life ?

Or a Puppet show?

Do I belong here ?

Why I can’t subtle the things?

Why I can’t fly with the wings?

Am I struck here with the lock of sorrow?

Do I need a key of happiness to borrow?

Do I belong here?

Do I shift people or pull people aside I love ?

Do I want them by my side to know they love me ?

Do I belong here?

Do I hate them for not loving or helping me ?

Or do I like them for not doing it so I did it by myself!

Do I belong here?

Do I hate when I do good to be good and being hated?

Or do I hate it more when people do good to look good and being applauded?

Do I belong here ?

Do I care about not being everyone’s cup of tea?

Do I care about the love not reciprocated back?

Do I care ?

Do I belong here ?

Yes or No?

Is it a phase called life ?

Or is it a puppet show ?

 

Good old days !

It’s been a while , we haven’t greeted each other. Hi there! Why can’t you come back? WHY??

When you were ‘A good new day’ , the only thing that truly mattered was ‘EVERYTHING’ and ‘NOTHING’. Means nothing was calculative and everything was cherished , nothing a feel like hatred and everything was lovable !

School’s regularity was for studies and fun together not merely for attendance. School lunch break was more of like Stanley Ka Dibba not like obnoxious college canteen stuffs. School romance was more of like A Yash Chopra Romance not like Punchnaama series or a Wasseypur threat! At that time everyone believed in chivalry. In healthy competition not to put each other’s down. At that time there was ‘Tere kesa yaad kahan, kaha esa yaarana’ not ‘dost dost na raha’.

I know it’s impossible for you to come back … Still , Please come back

– Yours New Day wanting it to be good 🙂

Life is a blessing in blunt :)

There comes a time in your life where you feel hopeless, useless, disappointed, feels like a victim , feels like puppet , feels like crying and whatever bad synonyms comes to your mind you feel that way. To be very honest , I feel in this way too !! We all do I guess!! As well quoted ” when a bad phase comes in your life it brings your all problems together”!

Whosoever reading this , my father once explained me about how to deal with anxieties , tensions and problems and he stated ” Sabse bada ant kya – Maut” (What can happen last to last – Death) Who would have thought that after his wise sayings it will come true and I will not have my grandfather by my side. It’s just a saying!!

While surfing Internet , I come across a lot stories, feeds, posts that they are going through this problem and that problem. I have many verses :

A.) My parents don’t understand me , they never do so .. I will leave the house.

B.) My boyfriend/girlfriend don’t love me , I will cut my hand.

C. I don’t want to talk to anyone MOOD

D.) Exams are coming , family issues, I feel like crying! USER DIED!!

E.) This is a live one ; yesterday my sister showed me from one of her friend’s IGStory saying – Kya pata kal hum khamosh ho jaye!!

Are you serious, is your life a joke??!!!! 

Let me be very clear that there are two things to be worried about – 2D’s – DISEASE and DEATH. nothing else !!(not even need to worry ; they are real problems, real worries) Trust me there is no big problem in your life. You have your family by your side, your loved ones by your side. Food. Roof. Clothes.This is enough! Many inspirational , motivational pages mention these types of quotes daily but to-day I have realised it’s true meaning. With the help of my writing , my blog I want to gratify each and individual about a simple agenda – Life is a blessing !!

my inner voice is struggling really hard. It has lost her grandfather. It has lost her love – one sided love by conveying her love to the one she love! It is bed ridden. Neither it want anybody’s sympathy nor anyone’s fake support. There are many people out there who will give you their fake sympathy , affection , care just by saying it ; to act great in front of the rest of the people. Real people will actually stood by you!

Say NO to fakeness! Stop acting childish! Say yes to Life , It is a blessing. Feel blessed every time.

-Anushree Kalla

Wandering :)

Oh! I stand there. I see sky aiming high. I feel the world snoring and all my heart wanders about you. In this picture case I recall you. In this shattered phase I want you. My soul wants your love, my heart cries little loud. It shouts. It wishes you to listen the screams. It prays you to feel the dreams. Situations and tables forces you to turn back and they forces me to stay back. People love and they love forever. Their love is like sun. It shines. Bright. Straight. My love for you is like moon. It shines when there is darkness. It shines when there is calmness. It shines when it’s the right time to shine. Neither to show nor to prove. It JUST SHINES. My love for moon will never end and so my love for you. Standing still. Staring above. Searching answers. Wandering you. Recalling you. Loving you. -Anushree Kalla 

Open Letter to the real heart out there !

Happiness is a choice . A choice by which each individual choose to be happy in his/her own space. In juvenile phase , a single chocolate was a healer. In mid-teenage phase , gadgets perform their role in a heroic way. In old phase , peaceful tea with a soulmate holding your hands created their happy space. But this selection in an adult phase is as difficult as GST !! And if you are real it creates a lot sufferings as well.

All the people consider themselves as REAL. But in deep disguise , in deep subconciousness the reality is different. There are actually few people who are REAL. Real in words. Real in what they say. Real in power. Real in hope. Real in anger. Real in sadness though. And additionally ‘Fakeness’ and ‘Duplicative nature put their heart in dilemma. As i proceed i would like to narrate few pretentious cases. Firstly, a social media incident which took 7-8 days back. I was suffering Instagram where i found a new icon ‘PollSection” in Gursimran Khamba’s IGStory- It was asked : “Are these people on Instagram pretend to be the one they are not ? Choice was ‘YES’ or ‘HELL YES’? It didn’t dazzled me because I completely related to that story. In context to be real that was Icing on the cake ! Secondly, people being hideous in what they actually are ! Commenting on each other’s IG pictures , tagging them in memes but in reality bitching each other in every aspect; from being professional to personal. Thirdly, saying that they care , they love and on the other hand backstabbing with their silence when you actually want them. These incidents are a proof in real. It irritates people who are genuinely real in their thoughts. Who actually cares.

An open letter to the real souls , real hearts – “Don’t exaggerate their ruthlessness, their selfishness, their duplicative nature in your pockets”. They deserve nothing but silence. There is no end to such things but there can be demarcation if you want. Make distance with them. Allow and align your thoughts towards choice of happiness you want. Reel as well as real ; Stay who you are!! And tables will soon change. You are far real than you think so stick to that and don’t allow any negativity or duplicacy. Fill that void with the perk of being real.   -Thank you 🙂

Found myself :)

As  i grow older ; i become wiser. wiser in thoughts,charity, gratitude , emotions , ignorance and love. my thoughts straight up and align horizontally with no curves. from the last 5 years i was searching this : the wiser me ! and from the last 5 weeks i discovered that. i used to search love and happiness in others and materialistic things. i would like to share a story , i was 6 years old and my uncle gifted me a watch (In suhas language : the one from 3 idiots – A titan watch worth 3 thousand in the year 2000) And i loved that. unfortunately after 4 years it went missing. and i cried like a crybaby as hell. the main motto was to dictate how materialistic i was ?! to very ups and downs i found that being wiser and not materialistic makes me more happy. and my happiness is very important. i often share my views with my sister, i utter my entire nuisance thoughts and end the conversation with a simple statement – ‘no body loves me’ she is tired of explaining me everyone does.. its not like that. but the stubborn me wins the conversation everytime. my endless thoughts were on peak and my sister found a new way which helped me in being more wiser. she said ” okay. if nobody loves you, its completely okay. if nobody showers the love you want its okay. you are itself much more capable of loving yourself that you don’t need anybody for that love. you are itself so strong to have stuffs by your own that you don’t need anybody for that. you are itself very much in your own world that you don’t need anybody for saying my entire world is you”. she added we agree that you are a crybaby and a pampered brat and what you want is true zone of happiness with bunch of beautiful people giving and sharing love and love but don’t forget you don’t need to search them you already have some people who will be by your side no matter what and pamper you not because you like it but because they love you and with that you have your own love ; which is rare haa” ?! and these words made me realise how beautiful life is! may be i am not where i wanted to be but definitely i am happy than i was used to be !  happy in my own space.

people find me a little arrogant, rude and obviously bipolar because this is i am ! when i joined my college i was that human i wished for ; sweet, helpful, poised, calm, listener, appologetic. but i found peace in what i am . i am completely opposite of the one i mentioned above. i am neither sweet nor poised. i am not at all helpful. calm is not even in my dictionary. and i accepted myself the way i am. i distanced myself from the people who are not good for me , may be they are good for others or themselves but definitely not for me.

i choose to be wiser for myself by myself.

p.s – to all those who find its hard to love them and nobody understands their feeling and all stuff ; you are itself capable of loving your self and choosing yourself. although a strong headed person need someone but wait: timing matters.

Let music be your best bud :)

One fine morning you woke up and realize 2018 is just 6 months away!! You skip your mind. You push your energy for the future zone. You console your soul about the upbringing future stuffs and give a power-puff slogan “GetSetGo”. Unfortunately , we miss our footsteps which are itself there in present . The one which are there with us today. Life has become like a music app. You download the app. Choose your favourite category. Set the volume. Add queue. Play. Repeat. Stop. Why to complicate this beautiful journey with so-called app. You can download it (choose your path) , You can select category (choose your field) , But don’t favouritise, Don’t add songs to queue (don’t add things for future) You never know what next song can bring.

Stay in present. Enjoy every beat. Let music be your best bud ; on simple terms – LET LIFE BE YOUR BEST BUD 🙂 – ANUSHREE KALLA 

Letter to the new soul !

Hey you !

It was a tough mid rough year for you. Though you wanted to start it much way before ; your own thoughts were ceasing you from doing so. In your own head –

You were fealing lost disastrously

You were falling sick poorly

You were failing hard miserably

However- ” The lost are never truly lost or atleast rarely”

The one who used to cry over unbaked macronies. The one who used to throw mom’s cutlery. The one who used to bash at anyone because of frustration. The one who used to search happiness in others… is now a complete human bluntly.

You ; Your own human diary. You ; your own strength. You ; Your own power. You ; your own Me ! You beautiful head can lit you up. You pure soul can hit you up. The one who cares for every relation. The one who shares every suggestion. The one who is not hard to love. The one who stays. This you is extremely strong. This you is extremely generous. May not be topper but a learner who never gave up.

Kudos the new soul who search and find happiness in herself/ himself.

 

 

Change NOW !

“I AM A CONFLICTED CONTRADICTION”

YES.. THE ABOVE WRITTEN WORDS ARE COPIED STILL RELATABLE. 

MY FATHER ALWAYS FORCES ME TO CHANGE AND AS A REBELLIOUS CHILD I DISAGREE AND CONFLICT BACK WITH A CONTRADICTION ‘I CAN IMPROVE .. I CANNOT CHANGE’. BUT SEEING SCENARIOS OF EVERYDAY CHORES .. MY FATHER PROVES ME WRONG AGAIN.

“CHANGE IS NECESSARY”

“CHANGE IS THE LAW OF UNIVERSE”

YES.. IT IS NECESSARY!!

NECESSARY TO LIVE. NECESSARY TO LAUGH. NECESSARY TO LOVE. NECESSARY TO SURVIVE.

 

 BRAIN : WHY TO CHANGE ? FOCUS ON IMPROVEMENT. IMPROVEMENT TOWARDS WORK. IMPROVEMENT TOWARDS CRAFT. IMPROVEMENT TOWARDS FOCUS. IMPROVEMENT TOWARDS CONFIDENCE. IMPROVEMENT TOWARDS LIFE.

 

HEART: COMPLETELY CHANGE FOR YOUR OWN GOOD. JUST FOR YOUR OWN SELF. CHANGE YOUR WORKING STYLE. CHANGE YOUR CRAFT PATTERN. CHANGE YOUR UNDERCONFIDENT BEHAVIOUR. CHANGE YOUR WRONG FOCUS. CHANGE YOUR LIFESTYLE FOR YOUR GOOD LIFE. FOR YOUR SELF.

JANUARY 2017 MARKS NEW CHAPTER FOR MY UPCOMING FUTURE; IT CAN EITHER MAKE IT OR RUIN IT.

I AM NOT ALLOWED TO BE EMOTIONAL FOOL AT THIS TIME. IF CHANGE WAS NOT NECESSARY THEN DILWALE WOULD BE A 200 CRORE CLUB MEMBER. IF CHANGE WAS NOT NECESSARY THEN SRK-KAJOL WOULD HAVE RECREATED MAGIC AGAIN. 

CHANGE IS REQUIRED…. AND THIS ARTICLE IS SAVIOUR IN DISGUISE. THE ONE WHO CAN’T SPEAK CAN WRITE.

TO ALL THE DISGUISED INTROVERTS WHO ARE DEALING WITH DIFFERENT SITUATIONS .. IT’S HIGH TIME TO CHANGE.

NOW OR NEVER

– INNER VOICE FOREVER 🙂

 

Do I still love him ?

Do I still love him? I don’t know ? Is it love ? Is it affection ? Is it jealosy ? Is it “I am missing him ” concept ? Is it I am being attracted towards him all over again ? Is it I am forgetting about the one I used to love since 6.. ? Or was that love was also affection . Is it I am in Confusion zone ? Is it even possible? I am totally confused . Or may be I am overreacting ? Or may be I am wrong all over again. Is it ????? – Inner voice .❤

OUR FANTASIES !

PARTICULARLY EVERYTHING IS WELL SETTLED. EVERYTHING IS BEAUTIFUL. ITS UPTO BEHOLDER THAT HOW HE/SHE PERCEIVE THE NOTIONS IN CONTEXT TO ANY SITUATIONS. EACH AND EVERYONE OUT THEIR LIVE THEIR OWN MAGICAL AND PEACEFUL DREAM. APT TOO ! AND PERSISTENCE OF THEIR IMAGINATION PERSONIFY THE ELEMENT. THE WORLD. THE AURA. THE ZONE. THE INNER SELF. THE REAL THEM. R.E.A.L MEANS R.E.A.L
NOBODY HERE CONFRONTS THEIR INNER SECRETS. WHY WOULD THEY DO SO? WELL, ANSWER IS AS COMPLICATED AS THE WHOLE NUMBER SYSTEM IN MATHEMATICS =D ITS GOOD TO HAVE A INNER DREAM. INNER FEEL. INNER FANTASY.
JUST FLOURISH IT AND EXPLORE THEM. AND FEEL HOW BEAUTIFUL THIS WORLD IS .
R.E.A.L F.A.N.T.A.S.Y = R.E.A.L Y.O.U
THANK YOU !